Midnight & Insanity

Wednesday, July 01, 2009



Midnight rolls into my troubled mind.

My sanity I could not clearly find.

An ailing heart does stab my soul.

An age of solitude takes its toll.

I cry for help and bleed internally.

But no one ever listens that carefully



So, I start to reach for a shining Star,

A night time flame from afar.

Like a moth, I am drawn to her.

But my lessons I do remember.

"Come too close and you shall burn."

So silently to the void I turned.



With blurry eyes I had found

Spirits dwelling in red dark potions.

An angel who masks my pains away,

A devil who steals my life away.

But listeners shine their little light

To cast these demons from my sight.

"Prohibition with no exceptions!"

Are the raving of these few.

As the bottle fall to the ground

Shattered memories do confound.

My body is tired. My soul is weak.

The future seems far too bleak.



Lost in a hell that is only mine

A final solution comes to mind

Do I dare to take the leap?

Should I care of those I leave?

But perseverance holds me here.

To keep on walking aside my fears.



I draw my strength from a dream

That someday, I will find my Star.

For a chance to see her smile,

A chance of a sweet embrace,

I would wait a whole eternity.

So as midnight rolls into Your mind.

I say to you fair evening and good night.

And please pardon my insanity.

My Silence



In my silence was the truth

Of how my heart yearned for you

I kept my distance, I held my words.

Protected you from my crazy world.



Not once did I ever say

A single word that could or may

Reveal the hidden secrets

That I bury deep within my soul.



But from afar, I saw you go

Into the arms of someone else.

And never will you ever know

Of how my heart once fell for you

And the regret and sorrow

That I forever keep.

That I can never show.



And in this time, I learned

A lesson from my ailing heart

That silence leads not love

For spoken words are meant to be

The keys to unlocking the passions

Held in someone's heart.

You know someone said that the worlds a stage

And each must play a part.

Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart.

Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance

You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue

Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange

And why I'll never know.

Honey, you lied when you said you loved me

And I had no cause to doubt you.

But I'd rather go on hearing your lies

Than go on living without you.

Now the stage is bare and Im standing there

With emptiness all around

And if you wont come back to me

Then make them bring the curtain down.


Mobile post sent by ByteMonkey using Utterli. Replies.

I'm in the process of setting up an audio-based blog for sharing my thougths at times when I can't type like when I'm driving from a job or the an office.

I'm going to see if I can salvage Utterli and use it as the main posting engine for it. Consider this my giving Utterli a second chance to win me back. I hope that Utterli doesn't fail in this endeavor. It is, after all, the core feature of this service which apparently isn't unique anymore.

As it turns out, Tumblr is now allowing people to also call-in their posts.

Well, it’s been a while since I updated anything interesting and I truly apologize for that. For the most part, I’ve been really busy with work lately, and ‘busy’ is probably an understatement.

In the last couple of months, I’ve been made to give presentations to staff members at the company I work for on the subject of social media and social networking. Although, I don’t consider myself a “guru,” it would seem that I have become the in-house expert on the matter.

Altogether, a good part of my time is spent working on my presentation. The rest of my work time is spent doing what I’m supposed to be doing which is build and maintain the company websites and social media accounts.

Personally, I’m looking at buying a house in the next year or so. I know I want a place that is close to my work which means that I have to wait a little while and save more money to afford any of the houses in that area. At this point, I’m just looking around. I don’t have the money to commit to anything right now, but in about a year, I’ll definitely be in a better financial position. (It feels weird putting that in writing. About a year ago, that was just a joke in my head. Now, it seems like an inevitability). If any of you have gone through the house buying process and have some tips, I’d appreciate any advice you may have.

In other quirky gadgetry news, I’m thinking about getting an iPod Touch to have a portable web surfing device on hand. Do any of you have one? How is the web browser on it? Does it support Adobe Flash? Earlier this year, I bought the Sony Mylo Com-2 and I was sorely disappointed. The WiFi range and battery life was horrible but the web browser was somewhat decent since it supported Flash. I really want something that will have a decent WiFi range, something with Flash, and battery life. Is the iPod Touch the device for me?

Dear @UtterliTeam

I'd like to know when I can expect a fix for my cellphone picture posts through Cellular South not rendering correctly on Utterli. It's been literally over six months since I last heard from you and nothing has been fixed. Please let me know if this something that you can not or do not want to fix. I'd like to know so I can say my goodbyes to everyone.

I have come to realize that there are other services out there that is similar to Utterli which will actually work with my cellphone company, and despite being a loyal user since the days of Utterz, I have decided that I have to move on if this issue can not be resolved.

Don't get me wrong. I have come to love this community of quirky people, and I would feel really terrible if I have to leave. But more and more, I'm sensing that Utterli is dying. I think everyone has noticed that site's front page is way outdated, and there really hasn't been any significant improvements or changes done in a very long time with the exception of the phone number changing.

Overall, I really liked Utterz/Utterli. It literally gave people a voice on the Internet and added a new dimension to people's posting beyond text and pictures. But the lack of support and lack of compatibility with my cellphone company makes it difficult for me recommend it to many of my friends who are also on Cellular South,

All in all, I know you guys are probably really busy. So, if I don't hear anything from you relatively soon, then I'll take that as an acknowlegement that you either don't care or you can't fix the problem. Either way, there is a fork in the road for me and your answer determines which road I take.


Sincerely,

ByteMonkey